3 God, your God, will restore everything you lost; he'll have compassion on you; he'll come back and pick up the pieces from all the places where you were scattered. ~ Deuteronomy 30:3
This is what it feels like at my house today. Last night 3 of our 4 kids were with us, pizza, laughter and a healing begun in a relationship broken. And this time....this time....all know and serve the Lord. As a mom, nothing else is better in the whole world, and to get to share it with my husband, and that's a sacred word to me, "husband", it was simply Heaven on earth to me. We hardly ever get to see Molly & Will. Such sweet and generous kids, love them so much.
It can't always be about Josh, but this is still so new to me, this new man, witnessing changes only the Living God can bring about, is astounding. Our home filled with love and peace. Obviously, there is adjusting going on, but I think we're doing pretty well.
I can look back over my life and realize very astutely that the Lord has been with me every step, though it didn't feel like it often times. Never the less, He was, watching over me, caring for me, at times when I didn't care much for myself.
And then the boy being locked up for 4 years. For most of that time I just couldn't wholly face it. I pushed it way down to keep from thinking about it. I loved him so much that the thought of what he could be dealing with was too much for me. And again, the Lord sustained. And when we picked him up in the cold, damp of early morning, it was as though the dam burst and the last 4 years of pain flowed out and was replaced with some of the purest joy i've ever experienced.
And Dave, my beloved, my heart, sharer of my essence, I cannot believe every day how blessed I am to be married to him. That is not to say that every day is blissful and exciting and perfect, lol, but it is to say that the deep love and affection I feel for him is fresh every day and I remember the lonely, dark days and am filled with excitement and gratitude anew. He loves me truly, takes care of me in the sweetest ways. As I like to say, I am terminally smitten, I cherish him every single day.
So right now, this very minute, this very day, my heart is full to overflowing. This is as good as it gets down here. I think of single friends who would like to marry and feel their pain, those suffering with cancer and my heart breaks for them, etc. I am not oblivious to the heartache around me and I empathize. So I say thank You to the One who is Everything for this season, and pray on behalf of those I care about.