When I am not feeling well, and i'm talking about the Mommy Standard not feeling well, I like to pamper myself for the day. Thankfully, I rarely feel that bad for longer than that. But my day includes guilt-free time on the computer, multiple cups of coffee with whatever my flavor of the day is, Renaissance Man grabbing dinner on the way home, and just general loafing about.
I read a post this morning and the writer was talking about what her 3 favorite things to do are. Like her, i'd never thought of it really, but one of mine is being alone with the Lord. Of course the thoughts that immediately rushed in were how I become distracted, but also, when I don't, sometimes I just feel too dense to grasp anything He might be saying to me. So my prayer is that, even if i'm like a dumb animal, I want His Holy Spirit to saturate me, let me just soak in Him for a while, curl up at His feet and just be with Him. Because I do know this for certain, His presence is better than any other experience. To just be still and absorb the love is the best thing this side of Heaven.
I hope to grow and learn and mature in the Lord. But on these days of not feeling well, or just not being able to grasp what He might be saying to me, I will just enjoy Him being here. What sweet assurance of what is to come.
There are people I love that will only change if they allow the Lord to change them (like all of us) and follow Him passionately. This can make me weary and sorrowful, there are too many bills, the car needs work, I miss my friends and family, the list could go on and on, for all of us. At this age, knowing that Heaven is the destination is incredibly comforting, and His presence with me now, a sweet foretaste.